I Can't Trust Myself, So How Can You Trust Me?

Now I've been thinking about my life.
After past the future, all the problem are clear.
I try to act on my own.
But my problem is I'll NEVER CHANGE.
In doubt, some good comes out.
I try to convinced myself, but I can't.
Now, I can't trust myself anymore.
For me, change are so unnaturally.
And I don't like how fast my intentions fade.
I tried running away from myself, but I can't.
Well, I always make wrong decisions.
It's not wonder if it's happen again.
Because I'll always don't change.
From now, please don't give me some hope.
It's not possible for me to do what they want.
And I try my chance to be a person I wanna be.
Just give me a time to think about it.
Keep away from me for these time.
I'll promise, I will turn in a good situation.
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new.
Holding on to what I haven't got.
I believe, I don't deserve to fall this way, but I tried my best.
Just believes in me, that's all. -Faried Othman.

I'm trying to change