Sorry,

I made this blog just to share my story.

Sometimes my words too over, and I didn't mean it!

I couldn't stop it and I didn't mean to hurt anyone.

I'm so sorry for that.

But I'm just telling the truth and what I feel, that's all.

It's complicated for me and don't worry about it.

Just ignore that.. Okay! ;-)

Thanks who understand me,

Faried Othman.

Aku Yang Asing by HUJAN

Wangi Kau lalu

Wangi bagaikan, oh bunga
Kau tak kenali
Aku yang selalu perhatikanmu
Berseri bagaikan bintang
Ku tak mahu Kau kan hilang di waktu siang wo woah


(Chorus)
Biarpun Aku yang asing
Selalu memikirkanmu
Ku percaya cinta itu memang buta wo woah
Harap Kau sudi mendengar deruan hujan jiwaku
Melalui lagu ini oh untuk mu


Biarpun Aku yang asing

Selalu memikirkanmu

Ku percaya cinta itu memang buta wo woah

Harap Kau sudi mendengar deruan hujan jiwaku

Melalui lagu, lagu ini oh untuk mu..


Walaupun Jauh by HUJAN


Siapa yang bertuah, memilikimu
Tuan empunya sang bidadariku
Bolehkah Aku menyentuh kulitmu itu

Agarku bisa merasa ke syurga seketika waktu wooah

(Chorus)
Tiada kata yang dapatku lafazkan untukmu
Biarkan diriku terbang jauh wooah
Ini bukan mimpi walau dalam tidurku ini
Biarkan Aku mendekatimu wooah
Walaupun jauh


Namun ku rasakan memang jauh
Jarak antara kita berdua tuhan saja yang tahu
Bolehkah Aku menyentuh kulitmu itu

Agarku bisa merasa ke syurga seketika waktu wooah

Tiada kata yang dapatku lafazkan untukmu

Biarkan diriku terbang jauh wooah

Ini bukan mimpi walau dalam tidurku ini

Biarkan Aku mendekatimu wooah

Walaupun jauh..

Lonely Soldier Boy

New album Lonely Soldier Boy by HUJAN. Great song! Support our local music! hehehe :)

I'm not OKAY!

My pain killer are finish already.
And My teeth feel too sore right now.
It kill myself, and I can't hold this pain anymore!
Oh God, please help me!

I'm not afraid.

Yesterday after I came back from working, some guys has following me.
Then they tried to stoped me, but I runaway because they too crowded.
It's really weird, because I known them.
And I don't know what they want from me.
It's look like they really angry and want to hit me.
Is this a threat?
Because they said to me "watch out after this!"
I'm so sorry if I did wrong to anyone.
But I didn't do anything, of course.
I'm not afraid of them, and I don't care who they are, just try me!
If anything happen to me, I will find you one by one if I'm still alive!
Don't think I'm quiet but you can do anything to me.
It's not easy like you think.


P/S : If you hit me, I will hit you back! that's a point!


Faried othman 

Dear Megan Fox,

I have a good friend.

And she is the bestfriend who I'd cared and loved most of time.

She from Sentul, Kuala Lumpur.

I loved to being a friend with her.

She is Nur Zulaikha Mohsin. :)

megan fox malaysia

I started knowing her since 2008.

She adding me at myspace and we started be friends from there.

And then, we became more closer when I ask her number phone.

From there I started to be close with her. 

And everyday we texting each other until now, no matter in facebook or on the phone.

Although she was far away from me, but she always take care of me.

Thanks, and I'm very appreciate it!

And that's why I loved about her so much.

For me, she a soft girl and she really adorable!

And she always treat me so well.

She is very different and sometimes it difficult for me to understand.

Well, I always want to be closer with her, no matter what happen.

And I want to be with her until the end, that's my promise! :)

First time I meet her on last fasting day in this year.

I never expected to meet her at that time, but all happen a accidentally.

Because that day I'm going to Kuala Lumpur to celebrate Hari Raya Puasa with my family.

And then I take an opportunity to meet her on that day.

I'm very happy on the first day I meet her, it's like a dream. hehehe.

Then we hangout together and we do a silly thing on that day. (ada orang tak puasa!) HAHAHA!

Then after a few day later, we meet again and that is the last time we're met.

I wish I could meet you again after this, yeah I'm promise! :)

All I need is time, because I'm very busy right now with my schedule.

Just wait for me. :)

This picture was taken when the first time we're met.

P/S : Oneday I will meet you again, yeah I'm promise. Just wait and see. Nanti saya belanja awak big mac tau! HAHA! :)

Love you,

Faried Othman ♥

Time always passed so quickly.

Time are always not enough for me.

And I don't have any opportunity to do something.

It's no matter what I'm doing or happen when I'm feel happy.

Sometimes, when I meet people I love, the time passed so quickly.

And It always did not satisfied to myself.

I wish I could spend time with them after this.

For sure, it's not happen like I did before.

Hopefully that time is running slowly.

Surely I don't want to miss these moment again! :)

Learn to Appreciate What We Have.

Sometimes when we have everything, we forgot to appreciate it.
We must know, all the things are coming from god.
And we should have to thankful for this.
Like a friendship, we must to appreciate that.
Friendship are like family, learn to appreciate them before we lose them.
I wish I always can be a good friend to everybody.
Indeed, I don't wanna lose my friend, and I'm afraid to lose them.
So I'm very thankful what I have right now.
For me, friendship is never end, while I'm still alive.
Don't think when we have everything, we can do anything.
Friendship is not like the money, because money can buy everything.
But friendship can't bought with the money.
Because friendship is comes from an open heart.
If your acting good, people want to be close with you.
And if your acting bad, nobody who being close with you.
That's what we should to appreciate what we have.
Only appreciate and be grateful, that's all.
It's not difficult and it's depends to yourself how to judge it.

Nightmare.

Last night I had a bad nightmare.

Probably it's just my feeling.

But I dream about my older sister.

In that dream, she died earlier than me. 

I hope that dream is not will be come true.

Because I only have her, and I love her so much.

Even she busy with life and her family.

For me, she is a good sister I ever had.

Let god take me first, than her.

I'd willing die because people I love.

I swear to God, I'll do whatever you want.

Please don't leave me, because I still need you.

And I can't live without the person I loved most time.

Just take my soul if you need it.

And I hope so, for one day.

Sick.

Totally I'm not happy this week.
Because I'm always sick and feel too tired.
With my busy schedule make me feel really tired.
Seriously, I'm not get enough rest on this week.
Everyday work, work and work.
I need to rest, and maybe I'm not going anywhere this weekend.
Just stay at home and do some stuff like watching tv, chat and sleep.
I hope for next week is better than this week.

Depressed.

My life is full with problem.

Because the problem always follow me.

Money is the first thing in my head!

Seriously, it always make me insane!

For me, we can find money everywhere if we want it.

But the other problem is, I don't have a feeling anymore.

I lost my strenght and I feel so weak.

Sometimes when a problem settle, then another problem are coming.

I don't know why, and I'll always keep thinking about it.

But I try to not give up quickly.

Sometimes, when I'm alone, I can be a mental disorder. HAHA!

It's sound very funny, but it's all true like I'm said.

Actually, I never expected to be like this.

But life must go on.

And I feel so sad for this.

I wish I could live better after this!

If it's not today, maybe tomorrow or the day will come.

I'm Just wait, wait and still waiting.

Faried Othman :'(

Rest in Peace.

When I'm 3 years old, my grandpa passed away.
He died too early, and I don't have an opportunity to see him.
God might love him more.
Even I'm not remember him so much, I'll always love him.
If I can turn back time, I would take care of him. 
I'll do whatever he want me to do.
But time couldn't turn back.
Of course, your family is really miss you a lot.
Because you're everything for this family.
For sure everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart.
But we didn't know when. 
I hope my grandpa placed with those who of faith.
Al-fatihah.

I miss you Tok Wan!

I Miss You.

Today I feel so weak and sick of tired.
Maybe I'm too tired of working and thinking too much.
And maybe I will suffer for this.
For sure I'm really miss you.
And I will find you someday.
Now I'm very busy with my work.
So many things that I must do.
If I'm not replying your message, consider that I'm busy of working.
Don't think I'm already forgotten you.
I'll never forgot you even I'm far from you.
If you think it's over, but it's never over. 
I wanna be friend with you until the end of my life.
And I don't want to lose you even what ever happened to us.
You must know, I'll always remember you every single time in my life.
Because I love you, and I'm still with you even you far.
I hope you happy at there and live a happy life.
I will always be here for you, take care! :)


Faried Othman ♥

Sempurnanya Cinta by Silent Stage

Aku bagai tak percaya padamu adakah aku segalanya

Haruskah aku menerima saja cinta darimu

Seandainya aku tak percaya menggapai bintang yang selalu kau pinta

Adakah kau akan tetap setia menemaniku

Aku sedang denganmu, kau buat diriku rasa terharu

Sememangnya kau wanita yang sempurna

Cukup aku mengkagumi insan sepertimu

Buka pintu hatimu, aku mulai jatuh cinta padamu

Kau buat diriku terasa bahagia

Dan inginku bersamamu untuk selamanya

Dengarlah wahai kekasihku

Bahwa aku tak pernah menduakan mu

Adakah kau akan tetap setia menemaniku

Aku sedang denganmu, kau buat diriku rasa terharu

Sebenarnya aku tak pernah menduga

Cukup aku mengkagumi insan sepertimu

Buka pintu hatimu, aku mulai jatuh cinta padamu

Kau buat diriku terasa bahagia

Dan inginku bersamamu untuk selamanya

Aku sedang denganmu, kau buat diriku rasa terharu

Sememangnya kau wanita yang sempurna

Cukup aku mengkagumi insan sepertimu

Buka pintu hatimu, aku mulai jatuh cinta padamu

Kau buat diriku terasa bahagia

Dan inginku bersamamu untuk selamanya.

                                    Sempurnanya Cinta by Silent Stage (promo)

This song still in progress. Just listen this promo. Thank you! :)

Tired.

Everyday working, working and working.
Ain't got no free days on my busy schedule.
Today I'm working for 16 hours and this is very insane!
Seriously I'm very busy and very tired for this.
Sometimes I don't have rest enough.
I can't do anything, because this is the way I work.
Now I don't have a time to spend with my friend.
For sure I miss you all.
But I must working hard from now.
Because I just want to concentrate my job, that's all.
Just call me or leave me a message.
For sure I will reply.
I hope you all understand my situation right now.
Take care. I love you all!
Bye :)

Live a Happy Life.

Now my life is different than before.
Seriously I feel very happy with my new life.
Firstly at my working place.
At there I met new people and new friends.
Their are very sporting and coolness people!
I love to working with them.
Because their almost makes me happy.
Everyday their makes a funny joke to make a noise.
Seriously I'm happy with this situation.
With them, I can forget my problem.
Problem are still problem.
But I'm still can enjoying myself.
Seriously I'm working only for money and help my parents.
Money is very important and everyone need a money!
Without a money we are nothing.
Now I'm very enjoying myself with my coolness friends.
Their always makes me smile and I feel very happy. 
Sometimes I'm think, their are insane! :D
Because their always making a noise, and I love it!
Actually I don't like to be serious for most of time.
It can makes everyone bored, tension and not enjoying at working place.
Sometimes when we are tension, we must to forget the problem.
With this I can forget the problem.
From now, when I have a problem, I've must to forget it.
My problem is not important than my job.
Because my job is more important than my problem.
After this, I tried to solved my problem one by one.
But, it maybe take for a few times.
Now I feel I'm happy with my new routine.
Because I feel I have a responsible and commitment for myself.
Everyday I woke up early even a day I'm not working.
I wish I can stayed my life like this for a long time.
May god bless my long journey after this.
Now What I need is working, working and working.
I don't care what I'm doing or job I'm working.
The important things is, I have a money and I know what to do with this.
I wish I can do what I want and makes people proud of me, that's all.
Thanks to all who support me, most of time.
Especially my parents, my family and my close friends.
Thanks a lot.


P/S : Problem are still problem.. Sometimes we must to forget the problem. Don't give up quickly. Because the problem are still following us after we solved it! Without a problem we didn't know to solved something. Sometimes a problem is useful for everyone... Trust me! :)

Until The End by Avenged Sevenfold

The song is about friends.
That were once close but have now drifted apart.
One friend has moved on with his life.
While the other friend hasn't progressed with his life. 
And is now being ignored by his former friend, 
even though he still cares for his friend and wants to be close with him.
But his former friend isn't interested in him, anymore.


"Don't change the way you think of me. We're from the same story.
Life moves on, can't stay the same. For some of us, I'm worried."

Twenty Two.

Today I'm 22 years old already.
Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah S.W.T. because still give me alive.
I hope this year is more better than past year. 
Time for me to recovery all the things that I miss.
Then I could do what I want in my life.
It's time to change and trade this life for something new. 
Thanks a lot for all wishing my birthday, I'm really appreciate that! :)
Love you all! Muahhh! ♥ ♥ ♥ - Faried othman.

21 November 1988 - Now

Working working and working.

Maybe I rarely online after this and facing my laptop.

Because I already work and having a busy life.
Now everyday I wakeup early.

Everything I do it's just for money.

No money, we can't do what we want!

In my mind just now, I'm just thinking about my work.

All I'd do just for my family.

Sometimes I feel guilty to my parents.

Yeah I know before this I'm always waste my time.

But now, I'm trying to change my passion life.

It's good for me and also to my future.

What can I do now, just do what my parents wants!

Like my father said "when we work then we will have money".

Thanks for my parents, because their always give me a chance.

And their always support me even I'm not listen what their said.

I'm promise I want to change my attitude after this.

I don't want to waste my time like I'm done before this.

Now I feel responsible to my family and my life.

Maybe it's my time to prove that I can do it!

Thanks for support me. I love you all!

P/S : I'm promise, I will change my attitude and be a good person.

Feel Guilty.

It's still raining outside, and I'm still waiting for a raining stop.

Time is running out, and I'm still not going anywhere.

I'm really tension right now, and I don't know what to do.

Because I already promise to my friends to attend his dinner tonight.

Yeah, I should go to my friend dinner at 7 O'clock, but it's still rain outside.

Now I don't know how to tell him I can't coming his dinner.

It's a heavy rain outside, and I can't do anything.

Now I just hope he can forgive me. 

I'm so dissapoint for this and feel guilty for not attend this event.

I'm sorry to all my friends.

I Hated My Little Brother!

Seriously, I realy hated my young brother!

Everyday I teach him to be a nice person.(mostly)

Now looks what he's done to me.

Everyday he make me angry.

Everyday he don't listen to me.

Everyday he raised his voice to me.

Sometimes, my mother angry to me because of him.

I don't understand what he want?

Seriously, these kind are realy waste my time.
From now, I'm not your brother anymore.

Please go away from my life!
After this, I don't care what would happen to him anymore.

I don't know how to teach him anymore.

Seriously, I give up and really dissapointed!

I just hope one day he's gone from me.

Or he regrets what he's doing to me.

Go to hell fucker!

I Can't Trust Myself, So How Can You Trust Me?

Now I've been thinking about my life.
After past the future, all the problem are clear.
I try to act on my own.
But my problem is I'll NEVER CHANGE.
In doubt, some good comes out.
I try to convinced myself, but I can't.
Now, I can't trust myself anymore.
For me, change are so unnaturally.
And I don't like how fast my intentions fade.
I tried running away from myself, but I can't.
Well, I always make wrong decisions.
It's not wonder if it's happen again.
Because I'll always don't change.
From now, please don't give me some hope.
It's not possible for me to do what they want.
And I try my chance to be a person I wanna be.
Just give me a time to think about it.
Keep away from me for these time.
I'll promise, I will turn in a good situation.
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new.
Holding on to what I haven't got.
I believe, I don't deserve to fall this way, but I tried my best.
Just believes in me, that's all. -Faried Othman.

I'm trying to change